The pursuit Of Fullness Chp5I ran away from them out into the forest like street and trying to dodge the rock like cars. I eventually entered a 'den' that i thought no one was using. I whimpered quietly and suddenly, like a bolt of lightening, out came all the tears. From being part dog- part human, to having the one person i thought i could trust love someone else. Even though i began to. But then i smell him and felt like melting into the den, becoming invisible. He crouched on all fours and began crawling towards me.
'What is he doing?' i think to myself 'Why is he doing this?'. It became obvious that he was 'crawling back to me'. I turned my head away, not wanting to get sucked back into him. When he got a little closer to me he said "Come back to me". I was shocked and confused. Was he not with the other girl? "Please, i-i need you" he said begging once more. If only i was HUMAN! I practically leaped into his arms and got lost in his scent, rubbing mine all over him. This time she did not come back and i was
Cloudy's renewalI still remember the day i saw you, you were blind in one eye and not a pleasure to ride. The other riders have told me how bouncy, and slow you were. I saw an old horse who was young in spirit, who was tired of all the unexperienced riders. But as soon as i rode you i gave you a spring in your step. Everyone was shocked, how did this old, broken down horse that was barely moving find a new energy, a new fire? Easy i came along and saw his spirit, i looked ACTUALLY looked into his eyes and saw it. I saw him wanting to get fired up but wondering if i was the one to bring it out in him. Everyone could tell he had changed, he was more alive then ever. Yes he was bouncy, but he is a western horse born and bred. Somethings just can't change. Then i remember moving on up and seeing you months down the track getting a little too excited before cantering. That you had actually started bucking. Yes it is a bad thing, but i gave him that freedom, that fire, that excitement. Some may think of it
Goldie that never wasSometimes i am walking down a street and i get a whiff, a whiff of the hay that you used to eat. I get a whiff of the memory, a whiff of your existence. I get up and move on, i used to know you. But now you are just a shadow, a shadow of what i remember. I used to love the feel of your coat, now i can hardly remember what it was like. I remember the love i had, the dedication and time i put into you. Only to have it ruined by some other girl who got off on making you buck. But after a while you seem to know who was riding you. That i tried to slow you down, i tried and failed. To make matters worse, i got an ego. A big ego, an ego that ultimately separated us. I am sorry, i hope you forgive me where ever you are. I remember your whiny when you saw me. We loved each other and you were a beautiful animal, you were my favorite. You also were the 'toughest' horse. But i knew you were gentle, you were cunning but gentle. The others were scared, but i wasn't. I knew you, i knew what you were
When i look backWhen i look back, back at us.
I see you and me wrestling.
I see me in love and you in lust.
You've never liked me, you were never in love.
It was my heart that was beating faster, it seemed to slow yours down.
You wanted to fool around,
I just wanted your love, the love that was never shown, the love i have never known.
As i look back, back at us
I see us wrestling.
Wrestling with the idea of us.